Monday, March 3 20:53
It's really tiring, I can just feel my physical and mental self breaking down.
It took me so much effort and courage to stand out to dance. Yet it all ended up in nothing. I understand that I'm not all that great. But I really wanna dance. Just dance. To my friends who are really worried about me, I'm fine. Really. It's just that I feel kinda lost now. I don't want to join anything that I have no interest in. These past few months really woke me up. I start questioning myself, must your passion be something you do well in? Or should I say, must you do well in your passion? I really love to dance, but I'm just not good at it. Please, Father Jesus...
Schoolwork is draining me too. Can't catch up with anything. And even sophie thinks I'm really slacking too much this year. I'm kinda getting scared that I won't be able to catch up. Math test tomorrow and I have entire graphing techniques to learn on my own. And yet, I have no mood for anything. Dance is draining me too much mentally.
If love is like a dance, I want lotsa love. Somebody lend me your shoulder to sleep upon. I have no energy left to think.
