Saturday, April 26 22:09
Hmm. I don't know why am i here today. Hahah. Nothing much to blog about. I can't remember what happened in the past one week, not to mention the week before that. LOL. Ohwell...
Anyway, after spending almost 5 months in JC, I realised something. I'm gradually losing part of my life. Can't really say no life since im enjoying my JC life in a way. BUt... it's just this part of me previously there that's gone now. In order to keep up with things, my life is FULLY packed with studies, band, ballet and a small percentage of piano which im suppose to focus on too but neglected. Not that im not enjoying all these, it's just that i sort of hope that i have time for other stuff as well. >.<
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! I MISS MY DARLINGGSS!!! >.<
Being away from each other for soo long, Im starting to be afraid that we'll start to lose touch in each others' lives gradually. Each time i see you guys, i feel that there's so much that i've missed out, there's so much that each and everyone has grown, so much that each and everyone has changed. It's kind of sad in a way, that in JC, you cant help but be bogged down by the huge pile of stuff waiting to be done, not being able to hang out with friends as much as before.
Okay. Enough of random rantings. Here's a list of things I need:
1. POINTE SHOES (it keeps coming off. i dont know what its problem?!?!)
2. Zettai Kareshi 6 (tanjia lost it. -.- now i have one missing from my collection)
3. oil blotter
4. handphone screen cover
5. contacts (uuhh.. wonder if daddy's gonna even get it for me.)
6. money
7. money
8. STILL money
Omg. Im soo broke i dont know what am i doing. Im like so freakin' miserable here lahh.
Okay here's a list of things I got to do:
1. Econs essay (the D&S test one. must rewrite. >.<)
2. Study chem
3. Prac piano!
4. Don't give up on trumpet
5. Find time for ballet(means prac more piano so that i wont have to sacrifice ballet for piano.)
6. Cut down on expenditure and therefore on rubbish food
Just look at the list. It's filled with things I mentioned above. -.-
Okayy. Talk so much, must be kinda bored with me right. Here are some photos! ^^
Dear vera asking people for money. -.- Trust me. Im gonna die for you to see one day if you keep asking me for money.
Whoots. Nice photo taken with my new hp during thermochem!
Taken when attempting to study thermochem while waiting for krys. Attempt failed miserably.
Playing cards in the open. 5 secs to being caught when this was taken. LOL.
Camwhore! Omg. I so didn't do that!>.<
Tuesday, April 15 12:03
15th APRIL!!! BALLET EXAM OVER!!! Whee! Hahah. Exam went on pretty fine. In fact it was quite fun lah. Not as scary as i thought it was going to be. I thought I danced ok. Not too bad, not that good. But more importantly, I gave my 100%. Okay, 90%. 10% was still abit reserved. As Xunxi said, not fang4 enough. NO regrets for this exam.
Screwed 2 dances up though.
Free Movement: There's this back arm which i assumed was side arm since the day i learnt the dance. -.- Hope examiner assessed it as a whole and didn't penalize me too much for that.
2nd Port De Bras: Zomg! Dena and i BOTH got our timing totally wrong!!! Wahahah. I have no idea how that happened. Suddenly i think having less mo qi might be a good idea. LOL. At least in times like that the correct person can lead the wrong person. But ohwell, so the story goes like that. We started off fine, feel abit weird and slow but nevertheless continued our dance. Then suddenly we realise, we lag by more than 4or 8 counts. LOL. Then we... STONE. Wahahha. The nice examiner was like, "its ok. try again." But all examiner says that and they fail you. x.x Anw, we just redid the thing lah.
Ohyay. And the scarf didn't get stuck on my head today. (like finally! -.-)
Anyway, Ms Pang was really sweet. She went to get assorted sweets for us and sat outside wrapping sweets for us while we do our exam and gave us after that. I lovee Ms Pang!<333 Haha. Hope I pass the exam and maybe do even better than just a pass so that i wont let her down. ^^
Too bad didn't take alot photos. But we all look like eggheads with our hair full of gel and pins, so it's not that pretty anyway. Hhahahah. I'll post photos up when I have the chance to bah. Haven gotten the photos yet. Then maybe you'll find me nice to eat. :P
Ohhh. Wanna post a lil' about my trumpet. This year is really first time im so serious about my instru. Never really liked it in the past and therefore not motivated at all to play well. Never had the intelligence to want to play well in the past either. Now, I dunno what went into my head, but i had this crazy desire to play my intsru well. Told zhijie im gonna prac EVERYDAY on my trumpet. Hhahah. Anyway, that's not the point. Point is, I wanna thank all those who helped me out sooo much by encouraging me and offering to stay back and prac with me even though they're not in band, namely BENA and ANTHEA. Hahah. These people really gave me hope when im most demoralised and depressed. A BIG THANK YOU FROM PEIRONG. ^^
Yup. Life's interesting. And Im sleepy. Bye.
Sunday, April 6 01:27
Hmm... A sudden emo-ness. Recently realised that I there's so much about my classmates that I don't know about. In fact I noticed that some time ago already, but what I just read on someone's blog triggered me to write about it. Things I don't know differs all over the place, what I'm blogging about is just one of them. There are really some people whom I trusted upon and wish to have a close friendship with, yet i realise what they are portraying to me are not they feel actually. I mean, I thought everyone is more or less ok with me, and then I found out that may not be the case. People who may not really like me still treat me like they do. I know it's hard to ignore someone just cus you don't really like her or find her irritating and they're just trying being nice. But I thought, maybe it's better if you can tell me what is wrong with me? :) I don't know. It's better to give me a chance to change rather than to continue irritating others I think? I know I may be abit not aware of things around me and not sensitive about the things i do and it may get really pissing. Please feel free to slap me on my face or smth and tell me off. Lol.
That may just be abit of thinking too much on my part luh. But in any case, I want to apologise to people out there whom I've made unhappy. Really sorry. Gomenasai. ><
Friday, April 4 23:19
Urrgghh!!! I think Im really allergic to milk. Today went back cedar and saw that wonderful meiji machine! Hahahah. Couldn't resist temptation and bought 2 bottles of meiji strawberry milk! And now... Im like breaking out in rashes. -.-
Yupyup! Today's Speech Day! Whee! Awesome seeing everyone again! Hahah. Esp with our blazers and heels, so zai looking! Waahhaaha. And we sang Cedar school song! ^^ I <3 CEDAR!
Wednesday, April 2 20:59
Today's a weird day. Morning QY asked me if i felt disappointed and empty yesterday night. And to tell the truth, I really forgot about council totally when I got home. LOL. Can't believe myself. OHyah. Got to update a little. Council elections out yesterday. DIdn't get in. BUt somehow, I was prepared lah. Hahahh. For some reason that only i know. Wanna say A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME THE WHOLE TIME! LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS! Okay, that's not the point. Hahah. Back to where we are, yeah. I didn't feel all weird and empty yesterday. But thing is, I actually felt weird and empty after band today! Im sure its not cus of council. But i have no idea why i felt liddat. Hahah. And its not only a mental thing, I actually felt it physically too! Whahah. Most amusing I thought. Though I had breakfast and lunch today, I actually felt hungry after band, which I normally don't. So i went to stuff myself up with lotsa food, Old Chang Kee and Mr Bean. Went home and had dinner somemore. Then all of a sudden, omg--- I think i shouldn't continue. LOL. You guys can go guess it yourself. Okayy, now everyone's gonna think im too stressed or what. No no, don't worry. Im not. Hahah. I think Im just crazily hungry today. Then went overboard.
OKay. Now about band. Whee. Hallelujah! I really think Im back in band for a reason. Hahah. For some reason, I managed to find this new way (correct way) of playing today after being unable to correct myself no matter what i do for the past 4 years. Today's the first time joined hc main band prac! Had a great time. Hahah. And today's first time joining band for morning assembly too. Im having the back to band feeling again. ^^I like being part of band! Finally found a place where I really belong. Hahah. Wonder if anyone can understand how great this feels. Im such a person of contradiction. Lol. To people who know me luh. Hahahah.
Today's a happy day! Hahah. And a weird day. I don't feel like myself.
