Tuesday, July 29 23:17
"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb…"
"What a stupid lamb,"
"What a sick, masochistic lion."
It's this. All over again. Good or bad, it's on its way.
Sunday, July 27 01:14
Just had the most awesome service i ever had. Sister Sarah was saying, " eh. see lah. disappear for so long until the Holy ghost have to knock you off your feet to give you a wake up call." Lol. CEJ'08 only one word to describe, AWESOME. Today was just Jesus and Jesus and more of Jesus.
Hmm. Yesterday after talking to Jia for soo long, i continue msning online with kev till 2 plus am. First time since so long ago that i slept so late. Hahah. Recently im either just too tired to be online then i head off to bed or i have no one to msn online too bored i head off to sleep. Yupyup. Woke up kinda late today around 12noon? Hahahah. Was woken up by alarm which according to kev is evil, cus it robs me off my sleep. Anyway, went for ballet class and i wore my new pointe shoes! whoo! without my cruche (okay. i cant spell it. but its the thing in front which protects the pointe shoes from wearing out.) Yup. So i was pretty scared i destroy my shoes. So ex lah. *heartache
After ballet went My Inspiration to prac piano. Found the U5 there pretty good. Better than the exam piano last year lah please. Though it still remains a fact that the lower keys about loud. But all in all i like Yamaha pianos for exam. Whoo. Sadly, i still cant play my songs smoothly. Or should i say it far from smoothly. Bahh. Lord save me. Went for CEJ at night. And makan at Chompchomp with Sophia dear, Shengkun and Derrick. I seriously seriously think Derrick looks like Kuojihao lah! Even the actions and reactions same one can. Yup. Nice dinner/supper. Then we go home!~~
Talk a little to Soph and stuff. And she was telling me i changed a little. The way i changed i think i realised too. Changed for the worse and changed to a person that i dislike. I guess im really easily influenced. :'( I'll try to remind myself a little from time to time and keep myself from getting lost. Sophia, you know what. Initially, i didn't realise the change in me until a very good friend in class told me. I didn't take him seriously and argued that it's the way i always am. This part of me who wants to be in denial tells me that no, i haven't changed. im still me. but at the back of my mind, i somehow know it's not like that. i think alot people may realise i changed and they are not telling me. And i really thank you for telling me. For waking me up. I really don't want to become like her. I don't want to.
Choonchuan is going to wear nice nice to his cousin's wedding today. Wonder how he look like. Lol. Hopefully he takes a photo of himself then i can see. Hahah.
Hmm wanted to cont my talk with kev but he's gaming now. Don't want wait for him le. Very tired today. I go sleep le. Talk to you again kev.
Friday, July 25 23:12
Today is a happy happy day. But also a screwed screwed day.
Morning had econs slack time. After that had Maths and integration test. I was practically playing with Vera's gc the whole time. Because i simply cannot do anything. So i just decided to give up and play gc instead. By the end of integration test Vera was like, "Eh, my gc feels so sexually assaulted by you." -.- Anyway, right after that we had 2 hours of boring chem. Vera and i were actually very very guai copying notes and answers but after awhile, we just got sian and start to talk and stone. To save time and energy and because we are so smart, we simply took photos of the answers on the whiteboard. Tsktsk. Only brains like ours work like this.
Anyway after that, we had our apollo ad hoc
i scream for ice cream. Vera and i ate ice cream and went away thinking that it ends at 1230. :( turns out it ended late. And our class seems as though we have very bad turnup rate. SORRY SHIONYEE AND JIALIN! Anyway, Vera and i went movie watching with Shijun, Jihao and Wilson. Had a really fun time seeing Vera scream around. After that went to watch Chibi with class for GEMS.
Yep tts about it. Im too lazy to blog further though there's still alot of things to say.
Im like. In the midst of an abortion argument with Kevin.
Tuesday, July 22 21:50
im sure both of us are thinking of the same thing, it's just that nobody wants to give in.
16:28
Finished reading Nineteen Minutes. Finally. This is first time in don't know how many years have i taken so long to read a book. I realise what was weird about the book that i last mentioned about. I find the book actually disturbing. To the extent that i want to read more. To the extent i smile and frown as i read.
Okay. This was suppose to be my 15 min break from piano as i sat till my pi gu pain.
Here i come. ChopinChopinChopin.
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Tap Tap Tap.
50% of Mozart and 80% of Chopin?
Stupid verashaw date me online tonight to viwawa and 2122 i still don't see her.
Finished L Change the World while waiting for her. Ohman. The movie's pretty good. Quite ganjiong at the end. And i get my retribution for watching so much. Got to go lie down and sleep soon.
Verashaw... where are youu....
Sunday, July 20 16:09
There's a reason why people choose not to be themselves in front of others. Because people are scared. There's a fear that others may not accept them for who they are, a fear of losing those whom they hold dear to them. But then again, if those whom you thought precious reject you for being yourself, then are they worth all your love? The mistake i made...Been blogsurfing and i realised Yuli took note of what struck me in Nineteen Minutes too. :) I take back all that i said about Nineteen Minutes, that it's not all that great. Somehow, i took much much longer to read it compared to other books, but nonetheless, it's pretty nice. Only starting liking it in the middle and now i can't put the book down. This is the part that started me getting hooked.
"... I worked out the details, down to the last second. I was going to kill the person I hated most. But I didn't get to do it."
"Those ten people -"
"Just got in the way."
"Then who were you trying to kill?"
"Me."
It got my attention in a weird way. I wasn't shock, neither is it because Im sadistic and want Peter to kill himself. It's just weird.
Anyway, on a happier note, I went YWD meeting cum celebration today with Lynette. Hahah. Nice performance they have there. When I was leaving, Lynette saw that i missed my bus and actually walked back to pei me. We were playing with her sunglasses and surprisingly, I could fit into her sunglasses. I was never able to fit into one properly. Lol.
Yup. Came home cooked maggie mee myself and had piano lesson which was extremely disappointing to the max. I feel so sorry for MsChng. Week after week i promise to practise and week after week all i can give her was disappointment. Somehow, i think im gonna do all i can to pass this piano exam. Even by extreme means.
On a even happier note, Friday after band went dinner with a few band people. Hahah. Had a really great time. :) More dinners together!
Took this this morning when my meimei bathing. She trying to use her bathing bearbears to cover herself.
And i just have one question for this photo. What is that blue thing doing beside the lion??? I took this in high school by the way. weirdness.
Thursday, July 17 23:22
Today meant alot to me. Just wanna thank Yongen for being there for me and reminding me that im not alone. I'll stay strong and continue running for Jesus. :)
Matthew 19:26
With God, all things are possible.
23:07
French horn for sicheng.
Wednesday, July 16 22:42
1 General Paper H1
65 B 95 91%2 Mathematics H2
45 E 846 21%3 Physics H2
25 U 507 12%4 Chemistry H2
44.5 E 665 27%5 Economics H2
47.5 E 452 50%
After isp results released, i feel like this.
Walk walk walk. Plonk. Drop.
I just saw what's written on this drink when i see kun and soph drinking it.
It's like. So for me. But i just totally hate it. Lol.
21:15
Just wanna thank Lord Jesus for what He has done for me.
Sunday, July 13 16:57
I don't know what's going to happen in the future, but right now, my feelings are 100% not a lie. I can say that with confidence. For me, as long as it's you saying it, it doesn't matter how slowly you say it, I'll still listen. If you can't talk on the phone, then I'll come to see you, just like this. If you want to walk, no matter how slowly it'll be, I'll walk with you...Caught this in One Litre Of Tears. Asou said this to Aya when she was in the School for the Physically Disabled. Somehow, this show never fail to touch my heart. Baahh. My bolster is soaked with my tears again.
Went studying with Krystal and Huihong yesterday night at PPmac. Not so productive considering i got stuck right at the beginning of Integration and no help could be found. Can't progress very much anywhere. Talked alot and caught up with each other. Hmmm. I think i'll still consider this quality time spent with my Krystal and Huihong. Hahah. Bonding time. I realise, the more you don't communicate with each other, the harder it is to catch up with each other's life, no matter how close you were in the past. So right now, no matter what, I'll consciously put in effort to maintain whatever friendships I have left. Even if it means hanging out together and not practicing piano for the entire night. :)
jialing': Hee. I DID fall asleep in class as a matter of fact. But it's okay, i'll fall asleep even without staying up late at night. Hmm. Anyway, don't be too upset about whatever's bothering you kay. For me, there are much too many things to occupy my brain to allow me to be upset over it. For you, i understand what's going on and it's okay to be upset for awhile. But don't be bothered about it for too long. Do your best in whatever situation you are in now and you'll find yourself happy as ever. :) God will never keep you in a corner for too long and will eventually allow you to shine when you prove yourself worthy.
Hmm. That reminds me of something i recently read in Jodi Piccoult's Sixteen Minutes.
Happiness = Reality/Expectations
That's quite true isn't it. What sets me thinking is this: What's Reality/0? Is it infinity?
Photo of yesterday
Linpeirong looks toot to the maxxxx!!!
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i so toot
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you look nice! because its youuuuuuu
Hahhaahah. You just made my day! ^^
Saturday, July 12 13:37
Im living a dancer and pianist life but im neither.
just a note, my pointe shoes are not red. i think red shoes are... scary? lol.
16:11
Helped my dear tanjiajia create a blog. Lol. And she's like sooo happy and excited over it. Made rayson help her with the blogskin. And i got to admit. Rayson is damn zai. Lol. Im like a total computer baichi. Sorry dear. No help on blogskins. Hahah. Anyway, im like so proud of myself of being able to think up of such a nice blogname for her loveonrunway. Thank me thank me. Hahah.
Reply tags
hanhan: thanks! omg. i sooo don't look forward to it. miss you hanhan!!! wanna go your house! >< keep saying saying saying. but cannot ever find time for all of us to meet together!
jial`: eh, you are my tanjiajia right. lol. since when you changed your name to jial`. it's like so random. hahah. anyway. you confessed first this time!!! miss you loads too! <3 i think this month cannot go out le lah. :( just thinking about piano exam makes me feel like dying.
krystal: baobei i like miss miss miss you alot alot. how long haven i seen you?!?! any way we can study together? hahah. im gonna prac real hard this time. but i feel like dying thinking about it. no. i feel like puking. ohman. i wonder next day still got mood sing birthday song to you not. hahah. joking! i'll never miss baobei's birthday! and i want to sleep on your new bed!
SHIONYEEBOO: LOSERR!!! hahahah. hello there anyway! jiayou for promos! ^^ thanks for the stuff from japan. really love them! ^^ im like keeping the `get rich` thing in my wallet. hahah. im sooo gonna get rich. whoo!
VERA: oiee backside. stop koping my greentea. start peeling and get whiter! hahahah.
andreww: baaahhh. i sooo prefer dance over piano! ><
yuli: hello randomness! universe jasmine! hahahah.
Alright. End of tags replying. Just realised how long haven't i been replying tags. Anyway, just been to book studio for exam. Kind of kiasu this time. Booked 4 half an hour slots and that freakin' added up to 60 bucks. Bloodsuckers or what?! Im soo going to claim that from daddy. No way im paying that on my own. Still owe so many people one backside of debts. First time my backside so expensive can. Anyway, today mrstan just wonderfully reminded us how long more we have to blocks. 10 weeks. Thanks ah. Like i need more reminders. When i heard that, i suddenly have this weird pukey feeling. Like literally want to puke. Like you run so much, you need to puke that kind of feeling.
Anyway yesterday was youthday. Spent it productively at Choonchuan's place and maybe not so productively at Zhuoyan's place. Choonchuan's place first. Hahah. His house like so much bigger than expected? Cus he keep telling me his house not big and i benbenly believed him. Got scammed. Lol. OKayokay. Anyway, his house reminded me abit of Steph's place and my old house. Hahah. Quite a nice comfortable homey feeling. Im like so obssessed over this writing on rice thing in his cupboard. Apparently there are tangshis written on rice displayed in his cupboard. Spent my time figuring out what's written on them. Lol. And another thing. Everything in his house is like higher than usual??? Some kind of discrimination against the short isit. I can like barely look out of his window. I have to tiptoe to look into his mirror. Oh and i realise he has this burger toy thing which i have too when i was small! Hahah. Sort of recognised it cus it was kinda unique. Vera and i go his house first thing, "im hungry. is there food?" Lol. And after that, we were productive! Vera and i completed our parts and so did Jihao and Chuan. Shijun had training so he cmi. See, you need to replenish energy before work to be productive.
Right after i went Zhuoyan's place in Maple Lane. Im suddenly struck with this weird thought that Zhuoyan plays so much maple he even lives in maple lane. Lol. Randomness. Anyway, we were totally stuck. Somehow our brains just cannot work yesterday and we couldn't figure out any volumes for our chemical clock. Sidetracked alot apparently and i think it's cus of me. :( im sorry. i couldn't help it. Zhuoyan's house is like HUGE??? First thing go inside his house we keep looking around asking weird questions. He asked us like 4 times "do you wan drinks???" and we keep ignoring him and keep shooting him weird questions until he pekcek. Lol. Went around to look at his family portraits trying to find him and
jihao. Okay. im still surprised over the fact that jihao's zhuoyan's cousin.
Jihao: Ehh. i can go his house whenever i like. im his cousin.
Peirong: Yahright. You his cousin i his sister.
And he really turned out to be Zhuoyan's cousin. -.- Then zhuoyan's mommy say, "eehh! you were with jihao just now? Jihao is very good at singing and dancing!" Wahahahahahahahahahah. im like superr amused. Anyway, then we continue to tour his house. Im like continually shooting him with weird random questions.
Peirong: eeehhh! you have a grand piano!
Zhuoyan: ...
Peirong: eeehhh! you have an old grandfather clock!
Zhuoyan: it's screwed.
Peirong: eeehhh! you have so many comps!
Zhuoyan: all of them are screwed.
Peirong: eeehhh! where are you in the photo!
Zhuoyan: the fat baby. i was a fat baby and now im still fat.
lol!
Peirong: eeehhh! why your picture at the staircase there slanted one?!
Zhuoyan: ...
*Went to straighten it.
Zhuoyan: Happy?!?!
I think i like really pissing him off or something. Every one hour i'll be like, "can you feed me? im falling asleep."
Zhuoyan: i think half of my food supplies have expired.
-.-
After like n hours, we still cannot some up with ANYTHING. >< Guzheng and Shionyee had to leave early leaving only Zhuoyan and i to die with our fried brains. After an hour of so, we decided to just give up. Zhuoyan came up with this proposal that is meant to smoke us through. Thanks to Verashaw for pangsehing me, i don't really feel like going home so early on my youthday holiday. So i just like laze around Zhuoyan's house crapping around. Keep using his msn to send <3s to people. Lol. Then we went to play on his grand piano. Whoo! hahah. He made me sit behind some wall to eat dinner while he play. :( Then we went upstairs and i stone at him do his projects. Keep commenting until he chao pekcek. LOl. He was like, "ni hen li hai hor?!" Okay, he had like so much projects to do i decided not to kajiao him and went to play piano on my own. Decided my playing is really shit and that i shouldn like publicly display to all his family members considering how big his family is. Went up to msn Vera to xian her around. VERASHAW, I DIDN'T STAYOVER IN ZHUOYAN'S HOUSE. Lol. Then around 10 Chuan msn to INFORM me (more like scold me. hee.) say i very bu zi dong. Stay until so late. So i went home. Lalala. One day jiu zhe yang over loh.
Today my whole brain keep thinking of piano. Somehow seeing Zhuoyan play yesterday gave me some motivation lah. Or at least he set me thinking about piano cus he keep asking if im scared for exam being so unprepared. So i came up with a resolution. Im going to glue myself to the piano 3 hours everyday. No matter what. I have to pass this time. Im going to practise practise very very very hard. Im gonna eat piano, sleep piano, play piano, mug piano. Everything piano. OKay. I think end of exam you'll see me looking like piano.
And im gonna study hard. Ohmy. I blogged for 1 hour. -.- I planned to start piano at 5pm and its 5.06pm alr. Ohwell. Shall move on. J.S. Bach. here i come!
Saturday, July 5 19:02
LIN PEIRONG
PIANO
GRADE 08
DATE 4/8
TIME 15.50
PRACTICAL EXAMINATION VENUE MY INSPIRATIONAL MUSIC SCHOOL (RECITAL 2)
Baaahhh!!! The dreaded letter is finally here. I'm like really scared now. Just when i felt that my life has more or less stabilized, ABRSM have to wonderfully drop this bomb on me. I have less than 1 month to piano exam. Awesome. Just kill me. Thanks.
Okay, my conclusion for this week: EXHAUSTING. Both mentally and physically. Physically because of the activities and mentally trying to keep going and not give up. After a week of our wonderful Blocks, we had our 2 days of Sabbats! Or Sababa to Butter. Hahah. Butter and i went Wakeboarding with Jiaying! WHee! 1st day keep flopping into the sea. I simply cannot see why its fun. Lol. It's like running done with hands to me. Sooo exhausting. Went home, sleep. 2nd day we like much more pro le. Can last long and we managed to do some basic stunts. Hahah. That's when the fun comes in! I did some one hand thing and some wake-cutting stuff. But sadly, it's like the last day already. :( Drank lots of sea water and swam in our boat's oil. Lol. Not to mention some other guys' pee and amongst bits and pieces of rubbish. Huihong was like, "Whoa. So dirty. Somebody can tahan ahh." Ehh please, i can okay. Though i admit abit disturbed by that on the 1st day. But got used to it eventually.
Yay! Had lots of fun during sabbats! ^^
Besides sabbats, after MsPang's comment of, "I close one eye to those who keep missing lessons." I decided to be guai and go for class. So right after sabbats on wednesday, I went for class. Thursday too and today, Saturday. Im like sooo tired and aching everywhere i cant even hold the railings in the bus. So i sort of rolled around the bus when i bus home at night. Huihong was so amused, "Are you still in one piece my peirong?" Not funny kay. I have to wait for her after ballet for her to help me carry my shoebag to bus stop. Lol. No strength left. After class on wednesday i just nua along one of the stone chairs in tampines mall.
Got sunburned pretty bad during wakeboarding though it wasnt as bad as jiaying and butter. My 1st time sunburned. Lol. Look like lobster. Now im peeling like banana. -.- Pain can. Went for band yesterday then Sylvia was like, "ohmy, you blow that time face got lines." Lol. I look like a peeling ahma. WHoo. Yuli was funny, "Ehh. you sunburn look prettier." Okay, next time i every week go sunburn one time kay. Wahahah. I think like that i get skin cancer by wnd of year liao. 1st day after wakeboarding meimei keep saying, "Jiejie why you pink pink one." Then im like, "you also pink pink wat. -.-" Then it became, "Jiejie why you black black one." BBaahhhh. ><
Time flies sooo fast. I have no time to catch my breath. Week before blocks spent all my time chionging my studies. Week during blocks time spent putting everything into chionging for blocks. Week after blocks sabbats plus ballet plus results back. Soon it'll be promos again. Butter's counting down and it's less than a hundred days. 1 month to piano exam. 2 to ballet exam. 3 to promos. I feel like im running on a conveyor belt opposite direction. If i stop i'll roll off to don't know where. Didn't meet my expectations for blocks. Failed chem by 0.5 so far and i forsee more to come. Band is starting all over again and this means having to practice harder than before to improve and meet standards considering now Lionel and Joshua is joining, stress level is going up. I just hope everything will be over soon. I don't know how much more can i take. Don't my life seem so... no life? Lol.
Oww. My nose very very pain. Off to go look at my nose. Byebye.
Ohohoh! Got my grade 6 ballet results back! Hahah. Merit! Not all that great but super happy i pass! :) My motivation to keep on working harder in everything.
